* Insomnia VS Nightmare *

Wow ~
Such a nice title for my situation now ~~~ :D
Every night , is either INSOMNIA , or NIGHTMARES ~~~
Sometimes I wanted to salute myself ~~
Every kind of story line in my nightmareSSSSS ~~~~
Robbery ~ House-warming ~ Ghost ~ Murders ~ and etc... 

Such a potential story creator ~~~ 

I can be another person in the midnight ~~ 

And another in the DAY ~ ^^

Such a potential actress ~~~

Can I get the Golden Horse rewards ~ ??
Hahaha ~ !!!!!!! 

I don't even know why I faced this kind of things in my life ~~~
Continuously for 4 months ++ since the day I was here ~ ??
It is still just a piece of cake ~ !!! :P
Well ~~
Who can fit their feet in my shoes ~ ?? 

There will be no answer for my questions ~~~ :)
No point to ask ~~~ 

I'm writing nonsense in the midnight ~
And this hour only will be my only time to write all this ~~

Aiyaya ~~~~
Life , is always complicated ~
We'll still have solution to solve everything right ?

XD XD XD

This is the time for each of us prove our Resistance and Power  ~ !!! 

Wow ~
Here we are applying the PHYSICS !!! ( Which is GONE for years ) kekeke ~~~~ 

heidi

17 April 2013  4:03am

Mood in the MIDNIGHT ~

Have been a very long time I didn't update my life over here ~
Since the day back from a place that I don't like at the very beginning until I don't feel want to leave it in the end ~
Never realized it ~
It is already over 4 months I left the place which I fall in love with ~
Really feel want to go back again ~

Since the day I'm here again ~
Have to face back those problem that I have escaped for a year ~
A lot of minute changes in my life throughout the year ~
Even my mind ~
I never expect I would change my mind before this ~
But the fact proved ~
Everything can be changed by the time ~
Just about the time ~

Time flies ~
Now already 2013 ~
It is the time for me to start another step of my life ~
Need to bear up the responsibilities on myself and my love ones ~
No more day dreaming should exist ~

Sometimes, when flashing back those days in the past ~
Felt so lucky I wasn't as in the past ~
Felt very lucky I am who I am now ~
Never change the mind which wanna thank for those who appeared in my life in the past 20 years ~
Thank you so much again with my full sincerity ~

At the same time ~
As usual, tons of problems that all of us need to face ~
I wouldn't want to complain on how hard is my life as there are a lot of people in the world having thousand times harder life than me ~
I appreciate what I'm having now ~
I really appreciate much to those who are giving me support all the time without asking for payback ~
Thanks for their kind and love ~
With their support, I know I can do better for my future life ~
Starts from now and every next second in the future ~

When I'm thinking backward on the days I've past ~
I think I should feel proud and lucky ~
To have my lovely parents always giving support on every single issue in my life ~
To have my kind friends giving support and supporting each others when facing tough life in school ~
To have my best friends willing to share my sadness throughout the days ~
To have some of the special friends trying to add happiness into my life ~
The luckiest things I have ~
I love them so much and wish to love them more ~ ^^



heidi
24 January 2013 04:13

Simple Note About Life ~~~

Have been half year over here ~
I have gone through all kind of stress ~
By facing all those new environment , life style , modules ~
The world out from home is just totally different ~
It is a world without protection of family ~
No friends ~
Nothing familiar ~
Everything have to be handled by self ~
I miss my home ~
Miss my parents ~
Miss them badly ~
Never ever miss them in such way before ~
Realized that I really miss them very much ~
I wish I can tell them I love you daddy mummy ~
Time flies ~
Half year gone very fast ~
There are just few months to go ~
Everything will be smooth ~
As what I wished before I am here ~
They must be achieved ~
I like the life style here ~
How nice if my family are here ~
Then I wouldn't want to go back ~
Trying to escape from something which I have to face sooner or later ~
Clueless Life ~~~
I have made my choice ~ ^^


by heidi
17 March 2012

Shame on YOU ~~~ !!!!

As a human being ~
Really felt shame on you ~
How could you do that ~ ?

Here is a message for you ~~ ^^

You should feel proud to have your name appears here ~
But only once ~ 

Just put aside by saying you are a guy ~
I think there will be a lot of people feel shame by knowing what you have done to her ~ 

So nice to have a new one ~ ?

Or just wanna feel fresh ~ ? 

Should be fresh right ~ ? 

But it is just for guys that are so immature as YOU ~~~ 

You really thought that all the girls will fall in love with you ~ ? 

You are kind of so attractive ~ ? 

Don't be so innocent ~~~ 

You'll just be nothing for girls once they all know what kind of person you are ~ 

Letting girls be so insecure ~ 

Put them in such bad situation ~ 

You really proud of it ~ ? 

Oh my god if you really think like that ~ 

I would like to have a pail of water to pour on you ~

To wake you up and face the truth ~ 

Please don't ever think that you deserve for a better one ~
Or you may think that if you are the best man in the world ever ~ 

But you won't be ~ 

May be you can have " The Worst Man Ever " awards ~~ ^^ 

SHAME ON YOU as a human being ~ !!! 

Regards,
heidi CowCow
16 August 2011

Security of love ~~~ >.<''

Realized that nowadays ~
Guys really disappointing a lot of girls ~
Here to say not every guys ~
But most of them ~
Just don't really understand why they did all kind of stuff that bring no benefit ~
Betraying really will bring them happiness ~ ?
I don't know at all ~
May be I should ask them one day ~ ? ^^

Few days ago ~
My friend got hurt by a guy ~
Really a nonsense guy ~
I looked down at you ~
Specifically I would like to tell ~

You give her up in your life ~ 

Better you don't regret and try to get back ~
As her friend ~ 

I won't allow her to back to your side ~ 

You will spoil her life ~ 

And you brought shame to guys ~ 

Guys ~

Don't be curious about why nowadays you are not trusted by a girl ~ 

There should be some histories behind it if you really face with this situation ~ ^^ 

Get to know it and cure it ~ ^^

But it would be very difficult ~ ^^ 

Just put yourselves in the situation ~
Try to think for us ~ 

We are not that selfish but just to protect ourselves ~ 

We need to do so since there is nobody can be protective ~ ^^ 

Girls ~
Just want to be secured ~
Again and again ~
Guys proved to us that they are not trust-able ~ ^^
What to do ~ ? ^^
Just let it be and take it as easy as possible ~ ^^




by heidi
13 August 2011

Just Smile ~~~ ^^

Smile ~~~
What it indicates ~ ?? ^^

It can be HAPPY ~~ ^^
Smile when we happy ~
Everyone knows that ~
Without any hiding action ~ ^^

It can be SAD ~~ ^^
People cry when they are sad ~
Not everybody did that ~
Our emotion can influence those people around us ~
Not everyone can control their tears ~
Most of us ~
Tears fell without notice ~
Smile when we are sad ~
Our smile can bring it away ~
Don't drag people around us into our sadness ~ ^^

It can be SPEECHLESS ~~ ^^
Keep quiet when we are speechless ~
Kind of feeling that we can't do anything or say anything ~
Most of us just will show the unhappy faces ~
Smile when we are speechless ~
Show to those people ~
They are not deserve to affect our emotion ~ ^^

It can be HELPLESS ~~ ^^
Be calm when we are helpless ~
Think carefully ~
What else can be done ~
Don't say " Can't " or " No " ~
Take a try before we regret ~
Ask for best friends' help ~
Or ask ourselves if we wish to solve it by our own ~
Smile when we can do nothing ~
Believe there is Fate ~
But don't controlled by Fate ~
Our smile will mean our toughness ~ ^^

It can be PERFUNCTORY ~~ ^^
Smile to those we feel don't want to face ~
That should be the best reaction ever for them ~
A kind of don't care when they told something that not suit for us ~
No need to get angry ~
Because they are not worth for it ~
Smile to mean that they are nothing for us ~ ^^

It can be RIDICULE ~~ ^^
This can be the worse one ~
Don't smile with this meaning if we can ~
It will not bring ourselves happiness ~ ^^

Smile ~~ ^^
Always change our emotion ~
Smile when we feel bad ~
Smile to those people or things that we don't like ~
Smile to everything ~
Smile can change our mind ~
Smile always make things better ~ ^^




by heidi
02 May 2011

Mature or Immature ~~ ^^

Recently ~
Found that lot of people around me facing different types of problem ~
Family problem ~
Financial problem ~
Relationship problem ~
Friendship problem ~
Academics problem ~
Career problem ~ 
Etc ~

Even me myself facing problem too ~~ ^^

My friend always ask me ~

"Why you always laugh ? " 

I answered ~

"Why I cannot laugh ? "

I am just thinking ~ 

I don't have to be always sad because of some problem that can be solved ~ 

I don't think they are worth to be letting me myself sad for whole day ~ 

Sometimes ~ 

People are stubborn ~ 

They are not willing to think in different way ~ 

Or can be said that ~ 

They don't think other way will solve the problem ~ ^^

3 years ago ~ 

I was facing a lot of problem ~ 

It made me ran away from home to a new place that without any relative ~ 

Lived alone ~ 

The 3 years ~ 

Changed me a lot ~ 

Exposed to the social life out of family protection ~ 

Definitely realized that ~ 

I am so lucky that I am protected by my family ~ 

Even though my parents keep on scolding or teasing ~ 

Their heart still protecting me ~ 

3 years time ~ 

I learned something ~ 

How to change the relationship between family members ~ 

How to ignore those things or people that look down at me ~

How to protect myself from all kind of attacking action ~ 

How to cut down the chance of arguing with parents ~ 

How to change my life better ~ 

And ~ etc ~ 

I think ~ 

In these issues ~

Emotional Quotient ( EQ ) is very important ~ 

Even how clever we are ~ 

If don't have moderate EQ ~ 

We are failed to be a human being ~ ^^ 

Here I take family problem as example ~

MATURE ~~

People that having mature thinking ~ 

Will not do something that bring no benefit ~ 

Example ~ 

Argue with parents ~ 

Is there any benefit that we will get ~ ?? ^^ 

Other than that ~ 

We should express our filial piety to them too ~~ 

And ~

We should think that is there anything that we did is wrong before we blaming others ~ 

Is it possible that people scold us without reason ~ ? 

I know ~ 

There are tons of people that will scold people without reason ~ 

But think before blame ~ 

We can't control other people's mind ~ 

Just make ourselves better ~ 

It will be a tough task ~ 

But ~ 

As my friend said ~ 

We just need 21 days to formed our habit ~ ^^ 

When ourselves are not perfect ~ 

Then why we spend so much time to blame others ~ ? ^^ 

Have we asked ~ Is it worth ~ ? ^^ 

When there are something unworthy to make us angry or waste time ~ 

Then what for we do it ~ ?? ^^ 

For an example ~ 

A person scolded you ~ 

For sure you'll angry ~ 

But when you think it in another way ~ 

You'll find that ~ 

He/She scold is his/her own business ~ 

What for you yourself need to angry or care about ~ ?? 

No need to explain so much when a person don't understand us ~ 

If they care about us ~ 

They will find ways to understand us ~ ^^ 

The more we explain , the more they misunderstand ~ ^^

Keep quiet at the right time ~ ^^ 

It will make ourselves more comfortable ~ ^^

Sometimes ~ 

Don't ask for what we will get when we sacrificed something ~ ^^

IMMATURE ~~

Those who are immature ~ 

We will find that we are very stress at every moment in our days ~ 

Asking why people keep on scolding us ~ 

Why people don't understand us ~ 

Why people don't like me ~

Why this why that ~ 

Have we ever think that ~ 

I did something that makes people don't like me ~ ?

I did something wrong ~ ? 

Or can I make myself better ~ ? ^^ 

Keep on blaming others is not a good way to live better in our life ~ 

We all should be responsible on our own life ~ 

Nobody should take care of us in our whole life time ~ 

Come alone Leave alone ~ 

Everyone knows that ~ ^^

Should our parent take care of us ~ ? 

Should they spend money on us ~ ? 

Should they worry about us all the time ~ ? 

They shouldn't ~ 

But why they do it ~ ?? 

They are just showing their love to us ~ 

They gave birth to us ~ 

Did we appreciated ~ ? 

Most of us just keep on complaining ~ 

Why they always like to control us ~ ? 

Why they do this , why they do that ~ 

Mature or Immature is not relate to how old we are ~ 

Is the thinking in us that determine it ~ ^^ 

Mature will always make our life easier ~ 

Immature will just ruin up everything in our life ~ 

Decision is in our hand ~ 

Choose to be mature or immature ~ ^^ 

Is all depend on us ~ ^^

heidi
27 April 2011